"It's not a subject to sweep under the rug, so I can't just dismiss it like it wasn't anything, or I don't take it seriously," she reflected. You would not even believe it," she joked of the constant rumors surrounding her love life."But, for me, and anyone who's been a victim of domestic abuse, nobody wants to even remember it. So to talk about it and say it once, much less than 200 times, is like… It didn't sit well with me." Though her public persona is notoriously raunchy at times, Rihanna told the mag that she's much more conservative than most lead on. “I’m serious, hand to God.” PHOTOS: Rihanna through the years In fact, she personally cannot have sex for fun. I am going to do what makes me feel happy, what I feel like doing.But that would be empty for me; that to me is a hollow move.
in its November 2015 cover story about her past with Chris Brown, and why she got back together with the singer after he brutally assaulted her back in 2009. "That girl who felt that as much pain as this relationship is, maybe some people are built stronger than others. You want the best for them, but if you remind them of their failures, or if you remind them of bad moments in their life, or even if you say I’m willing to put up with something, they think less of you — because they know you don’t deserve what they’re going to give." The two even collaborated together on multiple tracks, including "Put It Up." Meanwhile, Rihanna was aware of the public's reaction to their brief reunion from late 2012 to the summer of 2013 — and the state of her heart.Maybe I’m one of those people built to handle s--t like this. "If you put up with it, maybe you are agreeing that you [deserve] this, and that’s when I finally had to say, ‘Uh-oh, I was stupid thinking I was built for this,'" she dished.Maybe I’m the person who’s almost the guardian angel to this person, to be there when they’re not strong enough, when they’re not understanding the world, when they just need someone to encourage them in a positive way and say the right thing." PHOTOS: Stars who've survived abuse In fact, the "Four Five Seconds" songstress, 27, thought she could change him. "Sometimes you just have to walk away." Despite their complex past, Rihanna told However, she wishes the subject of Brown and his domestic abuse would be left behind. But you know, you realize after a while that in that situation you’re the enemy."That’s why I haven’t been having sex or even really seeing anybody. It has a little bit to do with fame and a lot to do with the woman that I am. This is my reality right now," the "American Oxygen" singer reflected, adding that she would "not [want a man] on a white horse. I’ve got too much on my plate, and I’m not even worried about it," she shared.
Because I don’t want to wake up the next day feeling guilty. And that saves me." In the long run, she's looking for her own Prince Charming... "A very extraordinary gentleman, with a lot of patience, will come along when I least expect it. Probably on a black motorcycle." PHOTOS: How these celeb couples first met For now, she's okay on her own. Rihanna's highly anticipated eighth album is expected to drop sometime this year.
I mean I get horny, I’m human, I’m a woman, I want to have sex. "It is lonely, but I have so much work to do that I get distracted. And I get fearful of relationships because I feel guilty about wanting someone to be completely faithful and loyal, when I can’t even give them 10 percent of the attention that they need.
But what am I going to do — just find the first random cute dude that I think is going to be a great ride for the night and then tomorrow I wake up feeling empty and hollow?
Christopher Maurice "Chris" Brown (born May 5, 1989) is an American singer, songwriter, dancer, and actor.
Born in Tappahannock, Virginia, he was involved in his church choir and several local talent shows from a young age.
Having signed with Jive Records in 2004, Brown released his self-titled debut studio album the following year.